I Want to be Better

I have a husband,  He is a man who is committed, loyal and determined.  He is steadfast and strong.  He is a selfless provider.  He is a giver.  He is a peacemaker.  He is an encourager.  He is tolerant.  He allows most anything, asks almost nothing and give everything...He will work two, three or more jobs to support his wife, children and their habits, hobbies and strays.  He will eat stale food on spotty dishes; and wear dirty clothes that are torn.  He only buys a pair of shoes, if it rains so much it has soaked through the holes. He keeps this a secret (but I know.)  He has precious few minutes in the night to read or watch a favorite show if he can stay awake ( I have time to ponder and consider before taking the time to write.) I kid you not my darling, I totally see our marriage more and more, like the Israelites and God.  Them, wandering and grumbling, and constantly making mistakes (ME;) and HE, always there, continually helping giving and taking care of  them; in spite of their incessant nagging and wasteful mistakes.    such love and patience you have.  I wonder if I am to model myself as your bride after the bride of Christ or the church.  How shall I prepare myself for you.  How will I manage your household, your family.  I want to be beautiful for you, for God. Healthy and Pure, Blameless and Nurturing.  I thinK I have some exercises to do hmmm? I am so sorry I put you through so much.  I am so sorry I don't love you enough.  YOU are my KING HERE on this earth and you deserve to be treated as such.  Not only privately, but before our children...especially before our children.  I pray that God has Mercy on this wife, and I continue to be molded and shaped as a submissive wife for you.  You have more than earned that right my darling.  You are a good man.  You are a faithful husband and loving giving father.  Forgive me for ever giving you anything less than the honor you deserve as the head of this household.  I love you and trust you with everything I am, and all that we are.

Talks and Tacos

Well friends,  it's Tuesday.  That means Table Talks.  It also means Taco Tuesday at our house.  We have to come up with creative taco suppers that don't actually involve eating tacos every single week.  Although, this family would do it with gladness!

I need your input on both!  I haven't begun to prepare for dinner tonight; so all of your fantastic taco soups, casseroles and salads are welcome...don't be shy.  My kids secretly hope, I don't get to it so we can hit the local Taco Bell. 

My Table Talk Topic needs even more input, not just from my Mother friends, but from husbands and friends of families observing us as mothers. 

 I often think of how my kids will relate to me when they are adults.  Will they vow to never be such a mother?  Will they want me there as they choose a wedding gown, welcome a newborn into their home, recover from an injury or - GASP for no other reason than to chat together?  

Every day of my life I doubt my work as their mom.  Every day of my life I try to do better.  And, every day of my life I mess up again.  This morning, I thought about the many people who refer to their mothers from the past.  "She was a Godly woman," they would say.  "She prayed for us and with us, and served the Lord with all of her heart."  

Will my babies grow up to say of me, that I helped or hindered?  Will they refer to me as the core of our home serving the Lord and our family.  Or will they consider me slothful, snappy and too "busy" for them?  What will my husband say?         What - does - my - FATHER - say?

Do you ever think of these things?