I have a husband,  He is a man who is committed, loyal and determined.  He is steadfast and strong.  He is a selfless provider.  He is a giver.  He is a peacemaker.  He is an encourager.  He is tolerant.  He allows most anything, asks almost nothing and give everything...He will work two, three or more jobs to support his wife, children and their habits, hobbies and strays.  He will eat stale food on spotty dishes; and wear dirty clothes that are torn.  He only buys a pair of shoes, if it rains so much it has soaked through the holes. He keeps this a secret (but I know.)  He has precious few minutes in the night to read or watch a favorite show if he can stay awake ( I have time to ponder and consider before taking the time to write.)

I kid you not my darling, I totally see our marriage more and more, like the Israelites and God.  Them, wandering and grumbling, and constantly making mistakes (ME;) and HE, always there, continually helping giving and taking care of  them; in spite of their incessant nagging and wasteful mistakes.    such love and patience you have.  I wonder if I am to model myself as your bride after the bride of Christ or the church.  How shall I prepare myself for you.  How will I manage your household, your family.  I want to be beautiful for you, for God. Healthy and Pure, Blameless and Nurturing.  I thinK I have some exercises to do hmmm?

I am so sorry I put you through so much.  I am so sorry I don't love you enough.  YOU are my KING HERE on this earth and you deserve to be treated as such.  Not only privately, but before our children...especially before our children.  I pray that God has Mercy on this wife, and I continue to be molded and shaped as a submissive wife for you.  You have more than earned that right my darling.  You are a good man.  You are a faithful husband and loving giving father.  Forgive me for ever giving you anything less than the honor you deserve as the head of this household.  I love you and trust you with everything I am, and all that we are.